Through Too fast , Nabilla Benattia - better known at the beginning for his "Nan but allo what ?!" that for a particular talent - retraces his life. A surprising step in view of her age (24 years), but which is simply explained: Nabilla pleads guilty for attempted murder following the night of November 6, 2014 when she stabbed her companion Thomas Vergara. Through her book, she defends and repeats in her promotional sessions, notably on Jean-Marc Morandini's microphone on Europe 1: "I am always the same, I just evolved, I matured, but I need to say things, listen to me, understand me, know how I got there, positive and negative, say by what roads I went and I said to myself that speaking in a book would be easy for me because there would be no people in front of me. "

If many react with virulence by specifying that few accused have the right (and the chance) to give their version one month before the trial, we wanted to read Too fast. Because we imagine it more lucid, more mature, endowed with a real awareness. A radical change that intrigues.

Since Nabilla has her phone grafted in her hand and has made this era 2.0 a characteristic of the book, prefixing the titles of her chapters with hashtags, here are the 10 hashtags that tell us more about Nabilla:

"I was as early as my father was strict."

• #FamilleMultiCulturelle

Nabilla was born in a family where the father, Khoutir, Muslim Algerian and mother, Marie-Luce, French Christian, form a mixed couple who hardly agrees to the education of children. On the one hand, the ban on ham, make-up, outgoing teenage outfits, on the other a more "cool" education where one does not impose much but where attention and kindness enough. In summary: the too-framed VS too much freedom, education too strict VS laxity. Nabilla meets the two extremes that confront each other without a middle ground, incapable of fully understanding what is being done and what is not being done, and which of both parents is right, although she affirms that her father is the decision maker, despite everything .

"I break, who loves me follow me".

• #Divorced

In addition to the divorce of his parents at the age of 13, Nabilla must choose between his father and his mother. So she chooses her mother, whom she considers courageous to have made such a decision. Tarek, his brother, chose his father so that no one would remain alone. Her family divides into two, before dividing even more and ending alone. What she calls "The Five Fingers of the Hand" including her grandmother becomes only one. She confronted herself, living alone very young, communicating with her mother - hurrying to rebuild her life - only through the post-it stuck on the refrigerator.

• #AmourToxique

In too fast , Nabilla talks about Thomas as the love of his life, the only one she had, making a clean sweep on the precedents. If the general awareness was born in prison, she did not go to the end concerning her love. They hate to become violent, they jealous, they insult ("You make your whore on TV"), they love madness and form a rock, ... The duo Thomas / Nabilla is a couple that is not ignorant. But love is stronger than all, and at no time does reason prevail. This reason might suggest that even if we plant our companion because he is jealous, it is perhaps because we are not made to continue together, despite the good he can bring ...

• #Mother Daughter

If Nabilla has a special relationship with her grandmother - she still admits to lying to him for her own interest because love for her granddaughter makes her blind - it is surely in view of her mother's extreme casualness, Marie-Luce. Mémé (Livia), as she calls him, endorses, if she can, the role of mother in the place of Marie-Luce. In her story, the mother-daughter relationship is non-existent, or far removed from the codes: Marie-Luce is transformed into an egocentric adolescent who comes out every night, and Nabilla is the depressed orphan delivered to herself, without a frame. It is at this point that she gradually abandons the school, trying to exist otherwise, through new - bad encounters.

"You gain in importance, you grow, you take care of you, doors open, you look at you, so you count.

• #TV

Then Nabilla goes out, dries out the lessons, lives off-guard, and gets spotted by a "caster" at the age of 17 for a reality TV. And everything is connected. Love is blind , The Angels , Nabilla becomes the beast of fair with its mythical phrase based on shampoo. We invite her, not for her talents, but to make fun of her. She knows it. She did not do anything, but she has the consideration that she did not and it suits her. But the whirlwind never ceases, dragging him into a hellish spiral where bookings in boxes, shootings, TV sets follow each other without a pause to take a step back. Nabilla is just an idiot that entertains people and nothing more. Nabilla is the bimbo clown who guarantees the audience. Then we invite him and both parties find their account.

• #Sexy

If Nabilla is a bimbo, it is because she does not know how to assert herself and does not want to bend under the heavy weight of paternal demands. For her, it is not with the veil, yes with the make-up, the piercing, the colored hair, the short skirts. Only, without a model, she misinterprets her femininity, and even femininity in general. Growing up, the mini skirts and necklines take the step, revealing more and more his anatomy redone (always to the extreme) in places. It mixes femininity and vulgarity, believes that to be a woman one must show oneself from all angles. A way to oppose his father, and an unconscious means of being absolutely seen by others.

• #Jail

The place "awareness". It is at the prison of Versailles that Nabilla realizes that she is not integrated into society. She has not studied, has no friends, does not know how to communicate well with people other than with her body. She realizes the world around her, returns to reality little by little thanks to some inmates who treat her like a normal person. With the crimes they claim, they can not judge her like the others. Clematis, not dressed according to her tastes (without marks), in sneakers, Nabilla discovers that she is seen as she really is. She resumes her studies and passes her patent. It tries to be interested in the real world and not with the universe that it has been built. The first time during the divorce of his parents, the second time during his "TV" period.

• #Boredom

The red thread of the book is boredom. The boredom that makes one cogitate too much to lose one's head, the boredom that makes one mad, the boredom that makes the less you do, the less you want. A boredom sometimes glittering over the pages that reveals a fragility and simply a real loss of his person. What do we do when we live alone at 15? How can one occupy one's days, build oneself, create oneself a solid foundation of education without examples or models? Eventually, boredom just creates. Create an imaginary and a character. The character "Nabilla" that we all known through her screen, the one that plays us, not knowing where she is going.

• #BonnieAndClyde

The mare. The most captivating chapter of Too fast , worthy of a detective novel revisited reality TV way. In this chapter, we forgot, we were taped, pressed to know the continuation and especially the end of the adventure. And if we felt in a fiction, it is because Nabilla also lived a little his. Full of unconsciousness, unable to imagine the consequences, Nabilla believes her character invincible, since it is not really her, not really real. We believe in a dream, an unreal parenthesis so much that it looks like a movie.