After 15 years, Kelly Clarkson reveals why she never wanted to win American Idol.

The blonde musician won the first season of the casting show 'American Idol' 15 years ago, later sold 24 million albums and 39 million singles, won several Grammys and became the most successful participant in a casting show. But as the musician now reveals to 'Billboard Magazine', she originally didn't want to win the show: "I remember that Justin [Guarini, another finalist] and I had a conversation at the time and I said: 'I don't want to win 'I don't want to win.' Because we found out that the winner had to make a film. He really wanted to make this film and I really didn't want to do it at all. I said, 'It would be cool if I finished second and you first because the first has to do the film, the second doesn't. "

Clarkson was ultimately chosen by the audience as the winner and will release her new album 'Meaning of Life' on October 27th, which is the first record she will release without her 'American Idol' record label. Kelly, who left her record label 'RCA' in June last year after a 14-year collaboration, now reveals that she cried when she realized that she could now make all the important decisions herself. In a livestream on Facebook, the 34-year-old turned to her numerous fans and said: "The inspiration behind my new album is, well, that I am free! It is my first album that I do outside of my contract with 'Idol' , that's why I can choose who I want to work with, you know. I didn't know it was going to be like that. I really cried a lot before that so it's a lot of fun and it's cool that I have this Experience now, [...] may finally make. "